So it's half an hour into the new year already, 2010 has just begun. I decided not to bother making resolutions this year, I only forget them by February and then get depressed about them next December when I look back at them and see what I haven't accomplished. So I decided why set myself up for failure? Just got with it and see what 2010 has to offer instead.

2009 was a really really shitty year. Nothing really happened, and if anything I'm 10x more depressed and miserable now than I was this time last year and it felt like very few good things happened. But I did learn alot of lessons in 2009, and for that I am grateful. I met and made friends with a wonderful girl 5 years my senior who showed me exactly what my life will be if I didn't get up off my backside and make something happen. I procrastinated less and accomplished alot in comparison to previous years. I tried new things and felt I grew as a person as a result: I took dance classes, French lessons, I went to London for two days completely alone. I now have independence and know what direction my life is going and where I want to go.

This time last year I expected to wake up in 2009 and for my life to improve just like *that*. Just because it was a brand new year. Well that didn't happen and maybe that was part of what made 2009 such a bad year: I expected too much of it.

I go into 2010 with no expections, only hopes and dreams. I hope to get into one of my top two choice universities. I hope to move away and start a new life elsewhere and finally be truly happy. But I know none of this will happen unless I make it, and tomorrow I know I will wake up and feel no different than I do today. And I'm ok with that, because by God am I gonna try my hardest to make 2010 a better year.