I was browsing the shops the other day and I think I have my summer essentials picked out:

I've always worn dark frames so these make a refreshing change, and they're the cat eye shape that I like.

I love this hat so much, it's bigger than it looks here and it has a big floppy brim <3 I tried it on and thought I looked cute ^^;;

I've really been into lavendar lately, and I think these are a nice subtle lavendar that will go with most outfits. They're made from the softest leather I think I've ever felt and I love the vintage feel of them.

I also really love Angelic Pretty's newest print, French Cafe. I totally hated it when I first saw it, but it's been growing on me more and more until I must own it! I love how cute and whimsical the print is, and I think it's really versatile and can be used as a regular summer dress too, which is better as it means I'll get more wear out of it. Thankfully it doesn't seem to be a very popular dress, so as I'm skint I'm gonna wait and hopefully snag it cheap from the comm sales or auctions.


I've also been doing a good amount of thinking, and I'm going to quit uni and move back home once I can. I have plans though: I'm going to do my best for a "regular" job to get some money behind me, and then train to do something so I've always got a career to fall back on. At the moment I'm thinking a hairdresser or a beautician or nail technician or something. That way I can still try aiming for the Disney thing, but I'll have a back up plan (which uni was supposed to have been if it had worked out). But I'm still going to go to Disneyland whenever I feel like and pop down to London for the day to go to loli meets and such. I'm so happy to have my head sorted out, it was driving me mad and I'm now looking forward to the immediate future instead of dreading and fearing it <3

So apparently I don't even bother to turn up to work anymore. I was due to start work today at 6.45am, and I have to get up a 5am to get ready. I get pretty bad insomnia, and 4am was the last time I looked at the clock before I fell asleep. It was obviously a pretty deep sleep, because I woke up at 7.45am, exactly an hour after I was due to start, I freaked out for all of half a second before I though "Oh fuck it" and didn't bother to do anything. It was supposed to be the first day back after my holiday so I'll just make out I thought I wasn't due back until tomorrow.

I'm super thrilled to be able to say that I've got Milky Planet :D By the time I decided I actually really liked the print in pink reservations were already full so I thought it'd be hopeless. Starry Candy Box were supposed to put some MP stock up at 9pm Pacific today so I opened the site up ready before I left it to go to bed, and saw the skirt was already up. So I nabbed it quick. And it looks like I'm gonna win an auction for the OP too, so yay! :D

Other than that I've just spent the time since my last entry trying to get things together for uni. I'm really confused with the bed though, in the list of things it says I'll have in my room it says "3/4 bed". I don't know what the HELL I'm gonna get bedding for a 3/4 bed that looks half decent enough. I'm struggling to find a suitcase I like too. And I can't find anywhere near me that sells A1 portfolios, except Argos who sell the tackiest looking ones I've ever seen and I really don't want to have to resort to it, it doesn't even have a shoulder strap D: I think I might take a day trip into Sheffield next Friday and see if I have any better luck there. Plus I'll be able to visit the DISNEY STORE! ^^ Happy days.

So yesterdays uni interview was very positive. The tutors that I met that do my course are absolutely lovely, and after only five minutes of looking through my portfolio she enthusiastically gave me a place on the course straight away. And I've pretty much made up my mind already that I'm gonna go there. I dunno if I'll stay there the entire four years of the course though, but then at the moment I'm not even sure if I wanna do the entire degree to be honest. I'm only unsure about doing the whole degree because I've got SUCH itchy feet you wouldn't believe. So I'm just gonna see how it goes and decide what to do later. I'm gonna pretty much focus on my art for that year, and then decide after that if I wanna carry on the degree at that uni, change to a different uni, or quit and go to France. But whatever I decide, I'm excited. I feel in control of my life at last and like I'm actually doing something instead of drifting. And even if I quit uni and go to France at least I'll still have spent a year getting some proper formal art training and still have a qualification at the end. Just not a degree.

So in September I will be moving to London :O

I've decided I'm probably gonna try and stick at my current job if I can too. It's £7 an hour, and I worked out that if I went back to Pleasure Island, after tax that would be nearly a £300 wage drop per month. And at least I feel better about everything now that I know for definate that I'm leaving in September.

And if this entry is properly coherent I will be amazed at myself because my mind is so all over the place at the moment. I'm totally drugged up on anti flu medicines.

So tomorrow is a day of firsts. First day of advent, first day at my new job, and first day helping out at my local theatre.

I just took a phone call from my new employer and at the moment I'm feeling really confident about my new job, I hope it will be ok and I'll be able to at least hack it until September (providing I get into uni of course). My boss seems really nice over the phone and fairly easy to talk to, but only time will tell. I feel nervous explaining about my hospital appointment next week and asking for time off when I've just started, but we'll see, I'm only training so I hope it won't be an issue.

And tomorrow I may be helping out at the theatre group I signed up for at front of house. I say may because to be honest it depends how I feel after my day at work as to whether I go or not, I'm still recovering from hospital and am tired so so easily at the moment. But hopefully I'll feel up to it and it will be ok, I'm feeling good about it. And I thought doing something little like front of house gives me a chance to try it out and see if I like the people there before i commit myself to anything big there. I'm excited for any new friends I may make though.

I was thinking in January I'm going to go to the library and see if theres any art evening courses I can take to brush up for uni. Something like life classes would be cool, it just depends if anything is available :/

I'm really nervous about my UCAS application. I really don't know what I'm going to do about a reference, I have no previous employers I can ask for the type of reference UCAS require, I cannot and willnot ask my brand new employer for a reference already after I've only just started, so that kinda leaves me with no one. I've emailed my old college to ask if they can help me, and I'm really hoping they can. They've read it, I'm just waiting for a response now. If I don't get one within a week I shall ring up and ask I don't have much time left now and am freaking out.

And also with regards to my UCAS application, I've lost my GCSE certificates so I've no idea what the exam boards were for each exam. I know my grades, just not the awarding bodies. So I've emailed my old school and am hoping they can tell me that, but they've not even read my email yet. So I'm just incredibly stressed out with the whole UCAS thing at the moment. But I have got the 1st draft of the dreaded personal statement done, so thats something.

I got a reply from Junk Food about my picture. They basically said that because it was on Flickr they assumed it was public domain (WRONG, Flickr clearly state otherwise in their terms of use which I was quick to point out) and then they offered me $1000. Which works out at about £600 so I'm happy. And they invited me to send them more of my work I think they might be interested in using and they pay me properly this time, so that could earn me some pocket money. And if not, hey I just got an extra £600 for hardly doing anything.

I've been doing abit of online retail therapy recently to cheer myself up as I've been feeling blue.

I got a couple of books and comics, A Little Priness on DVD (a film I'd not seen in years and completely love) a cool little Tokidoki bag, and these boots:



Now I am the first person to say that I generally don't like Uggs, especially the way alot of people wear them. But I do like the wooly ones, and when I saw them in this colour I completely fell in love ♥ I really can't wait for them to arrive. And I can't quite believe I spent £100 on a pair of boots, but I already know they'll be worth every penny.

Oh and I sent my Christmas cards out today so hopefully they'll be with you soonish (and be careful when you open them) :)